Grabe, sobrang tagal ko na palang hindi nagpopost!!!

Well, here i am now! I'm on Primary Support this week, starting 5pm a while ago until 5pm next Friday. So i brought home the Support Laptop and now i can connect to the net at a relatively faster rate, listen to music and watch DVDs!!! Yeah! My PC's sound card is broken so there's nothing really interesting to do with it except maybe edit pics in Photoshop.

Anyways, hmmm so many things have happened already! When was my last post? Was it a month ago?

Regarding my previous post, i was fortunately able to drop hints successfully to a friend so i was able to go to the Chocolate Nights Weekend Buffet! That was last Nov 27, Saturday. The chocolate dishes or whatever you call them werent' all that much coz i was expecting like really long table fulls just like in typical buffets. But then, i thought, just how much chocolate desserts can people take right? So there were three medium sized tables filled with mouthwatering chocolate treats for the chocoholics to savor.

What my friend and I loved best was the Chocolate Soup! Hmm, i can't find a picture sa internet eh! Hhehehe, anyway, even though Chocolate Nights is a buffet, it's not really a place for pigging out like those Eat-all-you-cans. First, because of the hotel ambiance that somehow inhibits you from stuffing yourself like there's no tomorrow. Second, because it's dessert! It's better if savored slowly and over some good conversation. Oh, did i mention that there was a string quartet playing all the while during the buffet? Hehehe, kinda romantic, so it's good for those who wanna make it a dating event.

Word of advice, there is such a thing as 'chocolate high'! Hehehe, basta masarap!!! Catch it if you still can =)

Regarding the books that i want to read, i finished reading Claiming of Beauty by Anne Rice and word of warning again, it's not for the faint hearted!! Tolerance for S&M is a must!!! Anyway, i recently bought Neil Gaiman's Smoke and Mirrors. I haven't read it yet coz i want to have it covered with plastic first before i start reading, heheh. OC, noh?

I also bought a Chocolate cook/recipe book! I can't express how happy i am for finally being able to do such a 'simple' thing! Coz before, all i did was go inside the bookstore, leaf through the dessert recipe books, drool at the pictures, check out if the recipes are do-able by moi and then close the book and check out the price at the back. I'd automatically put back the book in the shelf, stare at it for a moment and sigh. This just went on for years, that is, until last Saturday.

I'm just soo happy that i went to the bookshop with a friend who's a bibliophile. I think my friend saw the desire in me and realized that i just needed some prodding to buy it. Hehehe, well, it's true. I just needed some encouragement and there, i bought it! Pricey but i feel satisfied and i feel that it's really really worth it! =) La lang, mababaw noh? Pero it makes me happy, hehehe.

Regarding the holidays...we had our office Kris Kringle already and i just want to say that there's nothing like simple and goofy things to brighten up one's day, hehehe. The best part is when you exchange hunches of who's who and afterwards discuss how the 'mommys' and 'daddys' were discovered and the funny stories behind the gifts.

For the record. KK Version 1: 'something funny' was the general understanding of the riddle that 'parents' were supposed to interpret and based their gifts from. I got a sqeaky plastic alligator and a fart whistle! Wehehehe. I gave my 'baby' smoker a painstakingly wrapped Strawberry flavored DJ Mix pack of cigs, hehehe, oh my 'baby's' a guy, btw so i did that on purpose hehehe.

KK Version 2: 'something that stimulates the mind' (general interpretation again) I got 2 word quest booklets, brain twister--making designs out of 4 plastic tiles, and a mini magnetic checkers gameboard! Nice, nice, i reallly liked the wordquest booklets coz that's what i usually did in the airport before when i was bored! Meanwhile, i gave my 'baby' a hexagonal Justice League puzzle which he now uses as a mousepad! Weird, but he said he liked it! That's what matters, anyway, hehe.

KK Version 3: 'something related to heroes / good & evil' (general interpretation, i opted for the latter one when i chose my baby's gift) I got a portable Kim Possible fan! Yey, i can use it during those hot summer months or kung brownout sa bahay, hehehe =p I gave my baby another effortfully wrapped gift, a butane based lighter with skull design that has these funny disco blue and red lights when you flip the top for a light. I don't really know him that well so that's all i could really give him hehehe. Am i bad parent? Hehehe.

Grand KK: Exchanging of gifts will be on Dec 17, the project Christmas party at Pier One, Fort Bonifacio! Limit is P500 so i had 3 things in my wishlist that my 'parent' can choose from.
1) Love Spell lotion by Victoria's Secret Garden, 2) Sound Card for my PC at home 3) R.U.L.E. CD, Ja Rule's new album!! Diverse ba masydo? Hirap hulaan kung hindi ako talaga kilala nung tao, hehe. Sana naman mag-grant kahit isa sa mga wishes ko =)

Christmas with my College buddies...Overnight at Makati Shangri-la on Dec 18-19th! Ain't that cool?? I'm so excited! Girlie bonding sessions na naman ito for sure! Hehehe, lots of chikahan, losta eating and lotsa shopping!

Christmas season is the best! Will post more soon, maybe after Christmas na, heheheh =p

Craving for Chocolate Nights

I'm desperate...

I really wanna go to the Chocolate Nights Weekend Buffet at The Peninsula!!!! It has been extended until Dec. 18! Waaah!

It's definitely pricey for a non-chocolate addict, 495++ for adults and 295++ for kids. I need to find someone who's really serious about chocolates, who's a connoiseur even, or who's simply game to indulge in chocolate treats. Yung hindi KJ, sigh. I wonder who?

Just to prove how desperate i am, if someone is really game enough but is a bit hesistant to go because of the price, i'm willing to treat that person! But only one, hehehe. Giving away 1000 is too much i think. P500 for companionship? Kinda pathetic, kinda desperate, but hey, i just want someone to go with me and eat chocolate!
See? I'm getting corny from desperation.

Or could it be that i'm barking on the wrong tree? Maybe i should just go on my own? Although i've never gone to a buffet alone in my whole life! Hmmmmmm....i need some insights here. What should i do?

That place would probably be packed with families or couples and then i'd be alone?! I could always view it as a way to meet someone, but that's not my purpose! I'm kinda wary of some stranger suddenly coming up to me and wanting to indulge in chocolates with me (read: chocolate is an aphrodisiac). I wouldn't want to be with someone i dont' really trust while i'm indulging in something that might make my spirits really high...i might get carried away.

Dilemman, dilemma. Sigh.

Random Thoughts
Nothing really significant to say, but i just feel like blogging, whatever comes to mind...

Have i written down that i'm planning to have my hair curled? Big sexy curls and just for a day to see if it suits me. It's kinda ironic coz when i finally achieve a somewhat enviable straight hair, i suddenly get bored with it and want to try a different 'do. Anyway, my hair will of course grow back to being straight if ever i decide to get a perm.

My television is tuned to FashionTV right now and i'm watching models again--perfect hair, perfect body, perfect face, perfect everything. How come their boobs look so firm even without a bra? Is that some kind of trick?

Anyway, i realized just recently that i need not be a model with perfect everything to feel beautiful and sexy (duhhh!) I guess i should have realized this a long time ago but hey, i just did recently. It's nice to feel appreciated and accepted for who i am right now. No conditions,no pressures, just all natural me. Ain't that cool?

I am the girl with a lot of personal issues. Most of my friends dont' know this, only very very very select people know what my issues are. This is because I dont' have much friends whom i had serious heart-to-heart talks with yet. I dunno, sometimes i feel that maybe they're not ready yet to encounter the problematic me. I always project this cheerful and carefree disposition when i'm with my friends. That's why they think that my life's all sunny and fun. Well, i try to make it like that but of course there's stil so much bitterness and 'issues' to deal with each day. I'm just glad that those who know my issues weren't freaked out and are still here for me through it all.

I just finished reading an intense book last night: Eleven Minutes by Paolo Coelho. 'Intense' not just because it deals with the life and activites of a prostitute but because it's about her search for love and a 'sacred' kind of love making. I loved the way the story was told--oh it's based on a true story, by the way--first person and with a diary even. I love books like that coz i like knowing what the character thinks, feels, and dreams. I'm able to relate more, especially on the character's diary entries. Sometimes i just get shocked to see that i have a very similar entry/thought as her. What a coincidence!

The next book i want to read is Claim of Beauty. My friend says it's a different perspective to the Snow White fairy tale. I think Dan Brown mentioned something about it in his Da Vinci Code---the ancient practice of reverence for women that was abolished by the Church is still discreetly being passed on through fairy tales (think of the protagonists, all women right?), songs, etc.

Have i also mentioned that i'm a frustrated singer? When i'm bored and need to destress, i just turn to the karaoke channel on Destiny cable. They usually feature songs of the 80s or earlier and it just excites me, hahahaha! I find songs during those times easier and more soulful to sing than the new ones now. Could it be the lyrics or the classical tunes? Anyway, i just croon my heart out without caring if my parents or the neighbors hear me. Hey, i do have a decent singing voice, albeit in alto.

I think it's obvious by now that i am lonely when i'm in my room and have no one to talk to. Why would i write my thoughts as if i were talking to someone or to an audience? It really beats talking to myself in front of the mirror, in my thoughts or out loud. Whoever is reading this now probably thinks i'm a really weird person. Well, so i am, that's just me!

GIRLIE BONDING SESSIONS!

Life has changed a lot for me for the past few weeks...i've been doing so much stuff that i've never done or experienced before and it seems that there are still seamless possiblites out there in the world for me to try and experience! (parang ibong nakawala sa hawla eh! hehehe)

October 16: First day of Mel's sembreak from UP Law.
I went to Mel's house and everyone was so surprised that i could come and chill out with them, hehehe. After exchanging updates on each other's life, Mel, Nikki and I made a stop at Book Sale to kill some time before Ann and Rom arrived at Cibo for dinner. I ended up buying two s dessert recipe books for 50 pesos each and this month's edition of T3 Gadgets magazine for 120. I really love Maike Ever's bathing suit in the cover! Someday, i will get to wear one like that! ha! hehehe =p

"Bluetooth Fairy, I wish for your two-piece halter bikini!"

Anyway, so the three of us went ahead to Cibo and ordered food, i ordered pasta but vaguely remember what was with it! It wasn't delicious or outstanding enought to be remembered, hehehe. I also shared creamy squash soup with Mel and 2 desserts that i ended up bringing home the leftovers of. What i liked most in what we ate was the appetizer, spinacci -- a creamy spinach dip with refillable bread for P20. My friends from modeling were the ones who introduced this dish to me before and somehow i've associated Cibo with it. Our bill was exceptionally high, and mine was the highest! I shelled out P500 for dinner! Gosh! Oh well, at least we had fun, and here's our pictures to prove it =)

Clockwise from left: Nikki, Rom, Me, Mel and Ann

From Left to Right: Rom, Me and Nikki

October 23: Tres Marias' Quiapo Adventure!
Too bad we didn't bring any technology to capture our silly moments for fear of being robbed, hehehe. All three of us didn't bring cellphones or even our wallets! I just brought a lola looking coin purse that made my bills look like they came from the wet market! DVD-hunting has never been this fun for me and probably Nikki too since it's also her first time to go to Quiapo. Mel, on the other hand, is already a veteran and we kept teasing her about her kumares and kumpares who were the DVD vendors. But hey, even for newbies, Nikki and I, made, uhmm, 'instant friends' with some vendors, hehehe. Nikki encountered this weird vendor who kept making comments and maybe jokes about something that we really couldn't understand, so we just smiled and nodded while wating for Nikki's The Simpsons to be tested for quality. My encounter was kinda different but fruitful coz i got a free DVD, it's just worth P35 but hey, i still got it for free!. Oh, i chose Ella Enchancted for that freebie, not really something i'm dying to get, but one of the best from the choices available.

Our DVD hunting started at about 1130am and continued on until about 3pm in the afternoon, that's because finally, Mel's money ran out! =) We had lunch of course--at Chowking and merienda afterwards at a Chowking branch again near Me'ls house already. Hmmm,shouldn't we be getting discounts for being such loyal customers? =p Anyway, we rode an FX from Quiapo and got dropped at Edsa Central or somewhere near that and took a tricylce back to Mel's place. I was really suprised that the FX ride only cost us P20 each since an FX or 'shuttle' from Dela Costa to Landmark is already P10! Tsk, tsk, tsk, Makati naman talaga oh!

Oct 28: Nikki's blowout for her birthday!
We had dinner at Big Buddha in Greenbelt 3 but i got there an hour late! MFP Issue Tracking got me late because i couldn't access the server to the Remedy database from my PC! (workplace lingo, just ranting!) How very odd!

Clokcwise from left: Ann, Me, Niki, Rom and Mel

From left to right: Cliff, Imo, Me and Ann

Anyway, after dinner we scouted for coffee places but ended up at the bald man's shop, Max Brenner's!!!! It was like a chocolate dream come true for me! We ordered Suckao, Mud Max and Crunhy Chocolate Cheesecake. We had to request for six shot glasses so we could all taste the Suckao better--sucking the milk chocolate heated under a burner from the same metal straw seemed so "pot session-ish."

The verdict. Suckao was nothing extraordinary, i think it's the process of making your own chocolate drink that adds excitement to it. Mud Max is like a chocolate cake that came with a very thick and heavy chocolate syrup in a mini florence flask and Haagen Daaz strawberry ice cream, walnuts and assorted fruits as well. I really liked it because it wasn't too sweet and the chocolate was more on the rick and dark side. My friends liked Crunchy Chocolate Cheesecake better though. It had Oreo cookie crumbs as the cheesecake buttom, came white chocolate syrup, walnuts and assorted fruits too placed in small glass bowls so you could decide how much to put on the cheesecake. The experience was well worth it, a bit on the pricey side but i wouldn't mind going back again to try the other sinful chocolate stuff that the bar has to offer.

October 30: Mel's sister's 8th birthday
Nikki and I had perfect attendance again, as usual. We ate, exchanged morbid death stories, talked about supernatural stuff, and wrote down our plans of places to go to ...here's some of them!
rummage in an Ukay-Ukay
visit museums
visit Intramuros
indluge ourselves in a spa
go book hunting
take a trp to Tagaytay
fly to HK/Korea/Thailand
gimmik at Baywalk
volunteer in a charity
eat and shop in Chinatown
go swimming at Mel's house or at the beach
experience food in UP
girls' drinking night at home
do a movie marathon
bargain shopping at Tutuban
Isn't it so fun to be a single girl? Hehehehe.

Thoughts Past Midnight....

I never thought singlehood could feel this good! I used to think that i couldn't live without a boyfriend, that my world would fall apart and i'd lose meaning and purpose in life! What a misguided girl i was!!!

I've already realized and learned so much in just a few weeks since the 'big breakup' and i know there's still so much more that i will discover as the days go by.

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I'm finally and gradually learning to be independent, to stand on my own two feet and not keep on relying on other people (read: boyfriend and parents) to "shelter" me from the harsh realities of the world and of urban living, in particular.

In my two weeks of singlehood, I've tried out the different modes of public transportation--some alone and some with friends. Jeep, FX, Taxi, Bus, Tricycle but i have yet to ride the MRT, hehehe. I should probably start learning how to drive already. There's no one stopping me now =) I'm willing to take the risk, because i know it's the only way to learn. Just like what people say about learning to ride a bicycle (which i never learned), you gotta experience falling and hurting yourself in order to learn.

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Finally, i have more time for myself and my friends. It's about time that i rebuild my grossly neglected relationship with my friends and find out who i really am--my own set of principles, beliefs, interests. Until i have established and lived those set of things that define who i am, i won't enter into another relationship yet. It's just not fair for me and for the other party.

I'm just really glad and thankful for my friends who have stuck with me even though i wasnt always there for them in the past...and also for my new friends who have been ever-supportive during the times that i felt so empty and depressed. I've never felt so lucky and blessed-- for having been given the chance to grow into a strong and mature individual. =)

I have 3 issues assigned to me right now and its nearing the end of my shift...almost 9pm already....I'm also listening to Yahoo LauchCast, genre: Love Songs--and they're making me cry! huhuhuhu!

I just realized that i'm not the type of person who likes taking risks. Somehow i've paved the path of my future with security. I'm not passionate in the sense that i don't follow what i really want to do. I tell myself that i'm just realistic, but now i'm having problems with this trait of mine.

In terms of career choices, i went for security by choosing Accenture over broadcasting or other communication firms. In terms of love, i really feel secure with my relationship right now. Imagine, 5 year, 5 months +, how much more security can you ask for diba ?

Eh , what if you suddenly realize that there's more to life than security diba ? What if you realize that you've been missing a lot? What if you realize that there's something better out there, but the catch is, that "something better" is not something certain. It's not really secure. You have to risk a lot of things just to see if that "something better" will work for you.

Worth it or not?

Live in boring security and "learn" to be happy with your situation or take the risk of losing everything but with the knowledge that you lived life to the fullest and you didn't die without trying?

Sigh. Life is so complicated. So full of choices that would really turn your world upside down.

What should i do?!

I haven't blogged for quite sometime now...lots of things have happened but i don't want to write them all down, hehehe. Here's selective blogging for you...

Movies watched:

Dodgeball 9/18/04: Funny in a corny, pathetic and gross kind of way. More of a guy barkada movie, hehehe.

The Notebook 9/10/04: Loved it so much! At first,i was afraid that it was the heavy drama type but i was wrong. It's a story about love, life and second chances. Basta maganda, i don't want to spoil this one!


Splurge-o-Rama: Things bought...

Lots! I went shopping at Galleria today for myself! Hehehe.

The basic regimen every woman should have...and the brands i chose.

Cleanser: Dove Facial Foam, 100 ml (1/4 Moisturizing Cream, Non-soap formula)
Toner: Neutrogena Pore Refining Toner, 200 ml (alcohol-free, Non-comedogenic, AHA & BHA toner--whatever that is! hehehe)
Moisturizer: L'oreal Dermo-Expertise Revitalift with SPF 18, 50 ml (Anti-wrinkle + firming cream, anti-ageing action)
Day Eye Gel: L'oreal Dermo-Expertise Hydrafresh Eye, 15 ml (Anti-dark circles eye cream gel, Pure Mineral SPA Water, Opthalmologically tested)
Night Eye Gel: The Body Shop Vitamin C Eye Reviver, 15 ml (for all skin types, brightens and smooths)
Night Cream: The Body Shop Vitamin C Intensive Night Treatment, 30 ml (with 10% pure antioxidant vitamin C to smooth and condition)

Whoa! If i don't end up with the skin of a baby....hehehehe

The splurge isn't over yet. I also bought EarClip Headphones--which are not technically headphones since they dont' have that arc thing for the head that ruins your hair do. It's not the standard earphones that you stuff inside the opening of your ear either since it's earpiece is similar to that of the headphones. Hmmm, what should i call it then? EarClipPhones? Philips simply calls it EARGEAR.

Add Freeman BareFoot Softening Foot Lotion to my shopping cart. It has soothing iced teaberry and mint that supposedly helps soothe and moisturize dry, flaky legs, feet, cuticles, heels and toes! Very specific, noh? Hahahaha.

Another one for my feet is Rusty Lopez shoes, umm, semi-stiletto sandals? Black with Butterfly design in front, very pretty coz i like butterflies! hehehe =P

Oh and i finally bought some contoured foam for applying foundation and other make-up stuff. That's about it! I got freebies from Watsons and Bodyshop for purchasing a lot of stuff--Pink bath scrubbing thing with a rabbit and Libresse napkin holder with a free sample, of course hehe.

After acquring all those things, am i happy? Hmmmmm, not really. I just feel like i've done what i was supposed to do a long time ago.

To be continued...

THIS POST WAS FOR YESTERDAY 08/05/04

I've been feeling depressed for a big part of last week and i thought i had gotten away from my sadness yesterday....

I had Saturday work and my boyfriend kept asking me during the early part of the day what time i'd be done from work...I was kinda frustrated from the questioning but it was all worth it in the end coz we met up at G4 and watched Laws of Attraction. Call me shallow but a good movie at the mall always manages to cheer me up. I wasn't expecting a marvelous movie and yes, i it wasn't BUT my bf and i both felt that we watched the right movie at that point in our relationship. Could it be God's hand at work?

Laws of Attraction, starring Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore.

High-powered divorce attorneys, Audrey Woods and Daniel Rafferty, have seen love gone wrong in all its worst case scenarios--so, how bad could their chances be? At the top of their respective games, Audrey and Daniel are a classic study in opposites. She practices law strictly by the book; he always manages to win by the seat of his pants. But soon they are pitted against each other on opposite sides of a nasty public divorce between famous clients, with the case centering upon an Irish castle that each future divorcee has their sites set on. Audrey and Daniel travel to Ireland to chase down depositions, yet the two lawyers, who have been slowly developing a mutual attaction that neither wants to acknowledge, find themselves thrown together at a romantic Irish festival. After a night of wild celebrating, they wake up the next morning as man and wife. Maybe getting married first is the best way to fall in love.

Sorry if i had to spoil the movie. The message that the attraction of New York City's 2 divorce lawyers is simply this, don't give up on your marriage/relationships. Rather than putting up a fight to have a successful divorce, why not transfer the passion to fight for a successful relationship instead? Don't give up when the going gets tough, you'll be able to pull through if you really want it to work.

That was great inspirational advice i got from the movie coz i'm the one in the relationship who usually gives up first when things get difficult. I don't fight for what we shared, i don't fight for our love.

I'm just glad i watched the movie and revived my passion for our relationship. But not long after that, i encountered some rough patches again. I know i shouldn't give up and i didn't. That's why i'm feeling bad right now. I feel depressed coz i don't seem to know how to comfort someone when they're feeling bad. Honest, i really don't. Sigh.

Why? I don't know. Root Cause Analysis? I've got lots of theories but what matters most is that i learn how to comfort. It's not just with my boyfriend, but with my friends as well. I'm serious. Who won't be depressed with that?

Help. Boohoo.

How Can I Be So Stupid?

I thought i'd be ecstatic once i renewed my gym membership at Slimmersworld and upgraded it to "all branches" access. But no, my dream bubble simply burst when i arrived at Slimmers Legazpi branch!

Sigh.

It's so cramped. So little. So uncomfortable.

Grrr. If I only wasn't such a lazy bone and procrastinator, i would've checked out the gym environment first before getting an upgrade.

The main reason why i upgraded to the all branches membership was so it would be easier and more comfortable to workout since the gym would be nearer and i wouldn't have to problematize about waking up so early or the transpo.

Yeah it's near, and it's near and that's all it could say for itself. Fitness First Plus is nearer! It's just at RCBC Plaza. Fitness International is nearer, too! It's at LKG. Hmph.

Why didn't i check out the place first? Why!?

I'm so disheartened.

I'm supposed to be excited and happy to do my workouts but I'm really not. I still have to force myself to be okay about it.

How am i supposed to lose 10 lbs by Saturday! Aaargh!

Oh, speaking of losing weight....I opened the TV last night and a restaurant offering preprepared South Beach Diet meals was being featured. I just caught the tailend of the feature. The place looked like it was in Greenbelt 2 and they would start taking orders on Sept 1. Hmmm, i jotted down the number, hehehe.

I'm considering it. I might call them up and if the price is right, why not?

8.13.04: Just Updating...

It's 7pm and i'm here at my workstation waiting for my fetch to arrive...i have to stay till 7:30 to complete my 8 hours! Hehe, that's 'cause i went to the gym in the morning and got to the office around 10:10 am (1.5 hour lunch break, of course)

Anyway, nothing exceptional has been happening to me these days...well except for one but i don't want to preempt it, so it'll have to wait some days or so.

I finally got my first paycheck! I know i should be really excited but after counting down and calculating how much i need to pay for all the stuff that i want to buy or need to buy, the excitement has simply turned cold.

I seriously need to get a gym membership! My initial idea was to get one year all branches from Slimmers but i heard the price skyrocketed from 14,600 to 24000! IT'S STILL 14600 YIPEE!!!! What the hell? Fitness First sounds soooo inviting....hehehehe

I worked out at the free Accenture gym a while ago...it was ok, but there wasn't anywhere to change! No shower room or changing room, but hey, you can't ask for more coz it's free. It's a decent enough gym with 3 treadmills, 3 kinds of exercise bikes, 2 television sets, a cozy little area for doing stretches (with mats of course), weights, and hmm exercise equipment! Haha, i didn't do weights a while ago so i didn't really get to check out the equipment in detail. After working out for about an hour, i walked to my brother's house (located at L.P. Leviste St.) from Makati Stock Exchange. I took a quick shower there then walked to GT Tower. I think my travel time was more tiring than my workout hehehehe.

It was fun and nice to work out again after a long time of idleness but i'd rather go to some place nearer and with good facilities. I guess Slimmers is the way to go coz i can't afford Fitness First! I don't like maintenance fees kasi. My friend and co-gym buff Dior said that Slimmers Legazpi pales in comparison to Slimmers Greenhills--our originating center. It's much smaller, daw Sigh. Beggars can't be choosers, as they say. If only i had loads of extra cash, i'd definitely get a Fitness First memebership!

Hanggang Pangarap lang!

I feel so sucky.....

Long story but i'll just post the thoughts i had the other day...

I was supposed to blog about the idea of living in 3 environments (ang konti, noh?) I was just thinking about it while on my way to work....These 3 environements are modeling environment, accenture environment, and me&oli environement.

Of course, when in the company of wolves act like wolves do. (I just made up the wolves thing coz i can't remember the exact quote, hehehe)

The Modeling Environment
Physical appearance is the keyword here. We talk about beauty products, body maintenance, fashion trends, pop culture, guys, money, typical girlie model stuff.

"What shampoo do you use? You're hair is sooo shiny!"
"Did you go to the go-see/ VTR/ casting call by this agent? Is the budget high?"
"I wanna buy cute, flat shoes!" "I'm getting fat already...diet, diet, diet"

The IT Environment
Computers and techie stuff rule this world. One will hear terms like server, strings, codes, errors, status reports. More specifically, words like brown bags, sunsets and sunrise, which i think are accenture-centric words, keep on popping up each day.

"Were you able to access the database?" "I'll have to restart the server"
"What's the Java code to fix this error?"
"Please email me the status of the product test that you executed..."

The Oli Environment
This environment, I can say, is where i am the most comfortable. I am all that i am in this environement. I am corny. I am silly. I am childish. I am beautiful. I am glamorous. I am immature. I am thoughtful. I am loving. I can be me, warts and all. Doesn't matter if i'm not a supermodel, doesn't matter if i'm not a computer genius, what matters is how i am as a person.

Sad to say, i'm still not perfect at that department. I still have so much more to learn in being a good gf!

I'm a work in progress in all the environments that I'm in. There's always room for improvement. I believe that it's the imperfections in life that push a person to grow and become better....la lang just trying to cheer myself up...