There are certain people in my life that simply know how to make me smile, ease away the weight of a burden and make me feel better and at peace.And i'm very thankful for those kinds of people. I know that i might not be one of them, but i sure hope to be one of those who simply brighten a room upon entering it. I'd probably say that's the time when i have achieved fulfillment in my life... =)

Your morning thought for the day:
Fires can't be made with dead embers, nor can
enthusiasm be stirred by spiritless men. Enthusiasm
in our daily work lightens effort and turns even labor
into pleasant tasks. -- James Baldwin

Why is it that the changes that i make to my template do not register? Why is it that background pictures and pictures do not appear once i access my site from another comp, but appear in my own comp. I uploaded the files in a webpage naman, however hindi sya publicized. Pero kahit na diba? Why why why? AAARGH!

It's hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of. You just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while some good things never last, some dont even star't. "
> > > > Wow! reading this quote makes me feel lucky! There are just some things in life that are simply ignored and passed over--stuff we take as common in life. Sometimes we need experiences to put our perspective in focus, stuff that will bring our feet back to the ground. View the world with new eyes! hehe

There are times when we keep on asking ourselves why certain things happen to us like "Why me?" "Why does this have to happen?" "What did i do to deserve this?" These are the times when we focus too much on ourselves, too much on what's happeing in our lives as if the world revolves around us....

It's times like these that we need to look at the world with a broader perspective, others have it worse than you do! Be thankful! We all have our share of blessings and misfortunes, that's part of life. We must learn to accept these things and emerge better human beings!

I just came from my Philosophy class....that's the reason for all these musings....philosophy today had renewed meaning to me...i guess it's when you're in need that you cling on to everything and anything...you don't take things for granted but see the beauty in every single thing that comes your way..

"Experience is supposed to make us better, not bitter" "You gotta dance like nobody's watching, you gotta love like you'll never get hurt"

The Colors of Love Test

www.emode.com
Grace, when you reveal your true colors in love, you're a Sensual Partner

You're looking for a loyal love who can share your dreams and fantasies — both in and out of the bedroom. In fact, your greatest desire may be to share your intimate life with another person who can truly appreciate your sensual world. Because sex and sensuality are such valued parts of your life, these things are likely non-negotiables when it comes to finding a life partner. You're also looking for the kind of person who will value success and appreciate the finer things in life.

Wow really?! hehehe

Give me love coz i need all the lovin' there is....
Hold me tight and never let go...
I'm lost in an empty room
Don't know where to go
Don't know whom to turn to
Believe me, i'm all alone......

I wanted to tell you sana that life sucks but you know i can't coz frankly it doesn't! No matter how much pain and suffering you've experienced in your life, you know that as long as you live for another (being-in-the-world-for-and-with-others) life is full of meaning.

Even though i don't understand why life is like this, although i am sad, i feel deep down that life has meaning and that making other people happy as your priority rather than yourself makes you feel happy, better even if you're sad. Am i making sense?

I'm sure to some i am...sigh....crazy crazy thing! tsk tsk


I wish i could tell you how intensely i feel...i wish i could let it all out...but why can't i? i always used to,right--no matter if u got hurt? But now it's different. Why now when things are starting to get better, when i'm finally starting anew? WHY? I know, because it's too late...

Time has passed us by....time has passed me by...i moved to slow...now somebody has moved in....

of course i'm sad, but a part of me is happy...knowing that you will be happy..happier...

Before I Let You Go
By: Freestyle

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you love me
Made me feel, oh, so right

But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holdin' back the tears
I'm trying with all my might

Refrain:
Because you've gone and left me standin' all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow on my own
But baby

Chorus:
Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin'
'Coz it's true, baby, oh yeah
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do
So before I let you go
I want to say "I love you"

I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given so much more
Even though you know
I've given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you that I'm always dreamin' of

Bridge:
Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
I know someday, somehow
I'll find a way to leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be
But baby…

Repeat Chorus

WHAT'S WITH THE CAKE? WALA LANG TIDBIT


Perhaps one of Chocolate Cake's most worthy traits is the inventive nature of each section. Her recipes include ingredients as unlikely as chili pepper and black tea and cakes that include dozens of mix and match frosting options. While the section on garnishes works easy tricks into beautiful decoration, the recipes are a bit limited. With only a few options to choose from, fortunately one can rely on her more extensive section on plating the cakes. From her sugarcoated edible flowered plates to caramel drippings, the resulting tips would wow any cast of diners.

Not only are the recipes impressive, but the methods and execution also prove worthy. With a degree from the French Culinary Institute and experience as a pastry chef, Urvater's skills are revealed and explained to her readers. In her discussion of ingredients, Urvater probes the many kinds of chocolates, nuts, creams and sugars as an explanation of why particular ingredients are requested. Likewise, her instructions for careful measurement and a discussion at the beginning of each chapter make the recipes foolproof for the attentive reader.

Finally, the book's simple three star system allows bakers of any skill level to enjoy the book. While I was not daring enough to try a three-starred recipe, the one star chocolate tiramisu was absolutely delicious and the two star Sacher Torte, while more complex in its preparation, still turned out perfectly. Overall, the book deems itself a perfect addition to any shelf, particularly in time for the holidays. After all who could resist Berry White Chocolate Cheesecake or a Boozy Mud Cake?

There are many stories and myths about the origins of this famous cake. The version I know was told to me by Jurgen David, one of my pastry teachers at the French Culinary Institute. He is Austrian and worked for a few years at the Sacher Hotel, making countless numbers of Sacher tortes, and he swears this is the only authentic recipe for Sacher torte.
Sometime in the 1830s, Emperor Franz Josef, of the Austro-Hungarian empire, asked his pastry chef, Eduard Sacher, to create a less filling cake than the whipped cream-filled ones then in vogue. At the time, Mr. Sacher was working at Demel's pastry shop in Vienna, where he created for the emperor the jam filled cake we know today as Sacher torte. However, after he left Demel's pastry shop and established his own establishment-the Sacher Hotel-he continued to bake his cake. This is how a dispute arose between Demel's and the Sacher Hotel about which was the authentic cake. Eventually the dispute was settled and laws were put into place about which ingredients are allowed in an authentic Sacher torte and how it must be prepared. Today, only Demel's and the Sacher Hotel in Vienna are allowed, by law, to inscribe the name Sacher on their cakes. The only change I have made is to substitute unsweetened chocolate (which Europeans do not use) for the bittersweet chocolate so that the glaze is less cloying.

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here am i trying to get my the little of what i know about html to work...how i wish i had microsoft front page!...i don't feel like writing anything...well if you have to know i haven't done any assignment yet, i dont' want to think about it muna..and the guidon thing rin hehe. Well i spent countless hours perfecting the webpage for CHOCOLATE FANTASY well it isn't perfect yet. I lack knowlege that's why it doesn't come out the way i want it to....

i just read mel's blog about going to the gym which reminds me that i should start going na rin! i've slacked off for 2 weeks na yata and i'm getting flabby again, tsk tsk, might lose work opportunities!

yes, mel i agree...why does everybody have to be thin and sexy????

wow unbelievable slow ung internet here sa lib.... m waiting for mel and imo to show up..ho hum la lang akong magawa...

I am a STORY TELLER

I am a natural story teller, and tales unfold in my mind almost without thought. I can entertain myself by reading a book that exists only in my head, which might make me seem distant from people at times.

Ey britney isn't dumb! i happen to like britney spears! she's beautiful! ok so does that make me dumb?

Your Inner Blonde is Britney Spears

"Whee! I'm a virgin. Look at my butt crack!"
If everyone were as dumb as you, you'd be able to pull that one off.
But, you do get props for being one of the richest women around!


Who's *Your* Inner Dumb Blonde? Click Here to Find Out!

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What Was Your PastLife?
really?

My internet or the server is failing me again so i'll just sing some songs while waiting for a while until i connect again.....of course you can't here my songs so you'll have to read them instead! in short, here are some song lyrics!
This one was my assignment for Filipino class back in first year college, we were asked to translate an english song to filipino..and hey my boyfriend's creative juices came out...it's really nice try singing it too!

Before I Let You Go
BY: FREESTYLE
I CAN STILL REMEMBER YESTERDAY
WE WERE SO IN LOVE IN A SPECIAL WAY
AND KNOWING THAT YOU LOVE ME
MADE ME FEEL, OH, SO RIGHT

BUT NOW I FEEL LOST, DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
EACH AND EVERYDAY I THINK OF YOU
HOLDIN' BACK THE TEARS
I'M TRYING WITH ALL MY MIGHT

REFRAIN:
BECAUSE YOU'VE GONE AND LEFT ME STANDIN' ALL ALONE
AND I KNOW I'VE GOT TO FACE TOMORROW ON MY OWN
BUT BABY

CHORUS:
BEFORE I LET YOU GO
I WANT TO SAY I LOVE YOU
I HOPE THAT YOU'RE LISTENIN'
'COZ IT'S TRUE, BABY, OH YEAH
YOU'LL BE FOREVER IN MY HEART
AND I KNOW THAT NO ONE ELSE WILL DO
SO BEFORE I LET YOU GO
I WANT TO SAY "I LOVE YOU"

I WISH THAT IT COULD BE JUST LIKE BEFORE
I KNOW I COULD'VE GIVEN SO MUCH MORE
EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW
I'VE GIVEN YOU ALL MY LOVE
I MISS YOUR SMILE, I MISS YOUR KISS
EACH AND EVERYDAY I REMINISCE
'COZ BABY IT'S YOU THAT I'M ALWAYS DREAMIN' OF

BUT BABY…

REPEAT CHORUS


Bago Ka Lumisan
By: Oliver Ong
HANGGANG NGAYO’Y NAAALALA
PAG-IIBIGAN NATING DALAWA
KALA KO’Y DI NA MAGWAWAKAS
ANG KASIYAHAN

NGUNIT NGAYON AKO’Y MAG-ISA

PALAGING NASA ISIP KA
PILIT NA TINATAGO
ANG AKING KALUNGKUTAN

REFRAIN:
DAHIL AKO’Y INIWAN MONG NAG-IISA

PARA HARAPIN ANG BUKAS NANG WALANG KASAMA
MAHAL KO…

KORUS:
BAGO KA LUMISAN AY
TANDAAN MONG MAHAL KITA
PAKINGGAN MO SANA
ITO’Y TOTOO, MAHAL KO
DUMAAN MAN ANG PANAHON
IKAW LANG ANG NASA PUSO KO
KAYA BAGO KA LUMISAN AY
HUWAG LIMUTIN NA MAHAL KITA

SANA’Y MABALIK ANG NAKARAAN
AT NANG PAG-IBIG KO’Y MARAMDAMAN

ALAM MO NAMANG BINIGAY KO NA
ANG LAHAT
NASA’N ANG NGITI, NASA’N ANG HALIK?
BAWAT ARAW AY NINANAIS
IKAW ANG LAGING NASA PANAGINIP KO

MAHAL KO…

ULITIN ANG KORUS

You know when you're feeling lost and alone, when you feel the world just ain't right...count on a good song and it will make everything alright! hahaha it's true, i've been having really weird moodswings lately or more like stuck in depression, sadness stuff like that and you know what made me feel better? singing my lungs out! yep try before i let you go by freestyle but then this is relative of course, i particularly like the song very very much! Oli surprised me Valentines 2000 by taking me to the LOVE CONCERT with freestlye, zsa zsa padilla and lani misalucha. IT was absolutely awe-inspiring and very very sweet awww memories!

diba when you hear a song, there's usually a memory attached to it? well for the sweet valley readers out there, they can relate to this.. anyways there's this song that goes...

I kiss your lips, they feel so cold

i still remember we used to hold

all of the nights that we had made love

now we are strangers again

oh lady, it's hard to believe

that there in your eyes, strangers i see

and the only song there is left to sing

are the memories of yesterday

i'd be a fool if i couldn't see

how things have changed, between you and me

......now we are strangers again...

The lyrics are a bit mixed up or something, i just wrote from memory..hehe. Anyways whenever i hear this song, it gives me poignant memories of Elizabeth Wakefield and Todd Wilkins,well of course they didn't make love which is one of the main reasons of their break up in SVU..hehe. Well, i dunno, the songs just really reminds me of the two and how sad that their relationship had to end on such a bitter note...

of course, these are imaginary characters i;m talking about! Well what's a bored girl to do but relive memories of the past!

-Do you know that it's our 3 yr and 8 month anniversary today or our 44th monsary....? wala lang. A while ago in philo class, relationships was one of the topics again (seems that the teacher has a lack of meaningful ones! bwahahaha!) anyways,he was talking about those who seem to look good together that you think they'll end up married or something and then suddenly seeing them apart, both parties completely forgetting what they've been through together.. the love, the laughter, the tears... booohoooo! It's so sad! Relationships definitely have their ups and downs but what do i know right? Maybe to the one who doesn't have a bf, i would be someone to listen or hear out since im someone who's speaks from experience...but i tell you, if Oli is the one reading this, I'd say i don't have any authority over the matter. I mean what do i know?! Life is weird, age doesn't matter...age does not connote to wisdom. Well, at least it doesn't for me. Maybe i'm just less exposed to matters regarding relationships with other people that's why i'm failing in this very important "subject"--if it were. Well, there are hard times and all i've had were good ones..poor oli! But you know, i don't regret diving into the pool even though i don't know how to swim... yes i've grabbed oli for support and in turn pulling him down to the bottom, but no matter how much kicking pulling i do to him, it seems that he always has the strength to swim back up just to make sure that i don't drown.....boohoo! I SHOULD LEARN HOW TO SWIM!!!!

i'm supposed to be on my way home now...but this is one of the rare moments that i am able to "snag" a computer in the lib so maybe ill linger for a few more minutes or so hehehe

What box do you get put in?
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here i took another test and the results are freaky!

What's your party style?

Your score is 21 out of 30
Took a quiz of what kind of party girl i was...at www.seventeen.com

Friends Until the End
You like a good party every once in a while, but you're happy to spend most of your time hanging out with your friends going to the movies, eating great food and gossiping the night away. For a change, try to mix things up a bit -- maybe try a new activity or meet some new people. The occasional party is a great way to do that! Still, those late-night gabbing sessions are creating friendship bonds that will last a lifetime. Here's to close friends!

[my name is]: bancroft
[in the morning i am]: groggy
[all i need is]: love! haha wc reminds me to look for my Moulin Rouge CD
[love is]: no laughing matter, very hard once you get into a situation
[if i could see one person right now]: my oli! haven't seen him in 3 days now!
[im afraid of]: nothing! This is a postive statement that will convince myself that it is true
[i dream about]: crazy stuff out of this world


-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .

[pictured your crush naked?]: crush? i don't have one
[actually seen ur crush naked]: N/A
[been in love]: absolutely
[cried when someone died]: not yet
[lied]: a million times?
[coke or pepsi]: coke
[flowers or candy]: flowers! i want dozens of them
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean shaven
[tall or short]: doesn'tmatter

/* i guess those questions shouldn't be in the have you ever section*/

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-


[what do u notice first?]: hair or the porma per se
[last person u slow danced with]: my boyfriend of course
[worst question to ask]: stupid ones


-W H O-


[makes u laugh the most?]: oliver
[makes you smile]: oliver
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: Oliver, IMO
[do you have a crush on?]: CRUSH ON? NO? WHAT'S THAT?
[has a crush on u?]: i wouldn't know
[easier to talk to]: oliver, friends
*oliver is the name of my bf hehehe


-D O. Y O U .E V E R-


[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone
special to I.M. u?]: no,maybe if i had cable or DSL i would
[save aol/aim conversations]: no what's that?!
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: in some of my weird times
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: lyk everytime!


-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-


[fallen for ur best friend]: nahh
[been rejected]: nope i'm not the aggressive type
[rejected someone]: yup, got to choose well!
[used someone]: yes, sadly
[been cheated on]: hmmmmm i don't think so
[done something u regret]: oh yes how annoying


-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-


[u talked to on the phone]: my boyfriend
[hugged]: my boyfriend probably
[u instant messaged]: gemma!
[u laughed with]: Mel,Ann and Rom olop the other reindeer joke! haha


-D O .Y O U-


[color ur hair]: nope. i like the way it is in realistic terms, if i do i want it blonde lyk britney's
[ever get off the damn computer]: off course, when my eyes hurt, back hurts or prepaid credit expires
[habla espanol]: nope!


-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-


[smoke cigarettes]: nope
[obsessive]: yeah
[could u live without the computer?]: i guess so, i survived until 3rd year highschool
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: 24
[what's your favorite food?]: corned beef, not really fave but reliable whenever i don't like the food on the table
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: atis
[drink alchohol?]: nope
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: yes, if i do see one
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional of course
[trust others way too easily?]: yup they call me gullible


-N U M B E R-


of times i have had my heart broken? : if this translates to getting dumped not yet
of boys i have kissed? : just one
of girls i have kissed? : does beso-beso count?
of continents i have lived in? : 1
of drugs taken illegally? : 0
tyte friends? : about four or five
of people i consider my enemies?: around 5 when i'm angry, 0 when i'm not
of cd's that i own? very few can count w myfingers
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? : school newspapers? a lolt, national? thrice i think
of scars on my body? : pecklat is a scar right?
of things in my past that i regret?: wow too many to mention!

what adjective are you?

quiz by maikamariel
always nice? can't i be more interesting? hmmm hehehe

Dreams, Fantasies, Reality...i'd like to learn how to take pictures of food. i checked food photography sites on the net and their really good! i want to show them sana in my webpage, if only i could finish it! Which takes me to wanting to learn how to make a webpage, a really nice one with the works! They say it's easier with frontpage...which takes me to upgrading my CPU! there's a cheap pentium 3 daw at PC express...so that brings me to the topic of money... Christmas is just around the corner and i still haven't saved up for gifts! oh noooo! i need to earn lotsa dough from my bazaar and baking business, pardon the pun! hehe I need to start saving money!!!! forever crammer tlaga ako pati saving up for gifts cinacramm ko baad really baad....hehe i'll manage to pull through again hopefully! so whoever is reading this, pls go to my bazaar! heheh SUPER BAZAAR AND FOOD FAIR 2002: NOV 30 -DEC 1 SANCTUARIO DE SAN ANTONIO FORBES PARK MAKATI! Thank you very much for your support i shall be forever grateful! You might receive a nice xmas gift too! hehe

November 15, 2002
This has been an absolutely weird, "ambivalent" day! Remember, i was telling you about my great joy on transferring history classes. Well, i was harshly awakened from my joyful reverie when the secretary told me that the chairperson didn't sign my load revision form but signed others with it, including mel's! so that must mean that she did not approve of it. Dapat daw conflict! Ha! i was so dejected! i was regretting being honest! i mean i could have easily written conflict of schedule but i didn't because i had a good judgement to be honest! Well so i fell into another bout of depression....It's good i have supportive friends who told me not to give up...so when i came back to school for the Guidon GA, I went again to the History dept (after a bit of urging from mel and imo) to check my load rev form. And to my suprise and delight (sounds like food) the chairperson was there signing forms. She didn't seem so meticulous in signing so maybe she just signed everythng there! LUCKY ME! HEHEHE
It's kinda weird though because although i got my load rev signed, i wasn't that happy anymore like yesterday. Well, the form hasn't been processed yet so i don't want to be soo happy again, you could say i'm sorta anticipating anything that could go wrong. I don't want to count my chikens until they hatch hehehe

November 16, 2002
I’m not so fond of kids. Especially those between 2-5 yrs old. I have three pamangkins and they fall in that age group! Aaargh, they visit here every weekend to make silly noises that amazingly make their parents and my parents happy. Well, their level of hyperactiivty is quite understandable, I just don’t like the nosiness and kakulitan. It surely drives me off the wall. Like one time, I was playing SIMS and one of them, the aggressive one, kept asking why why why and telling me to make the characters do this and that..no, siree! I was a spoiled child when I was growing up and even up til now, that’s why I don’t tolerate that in others. Bad noh? Another more recent incident was when another one of them, the youngest and most behind in learning, played with my precious Hello Kitty and made pentel pen marks on the back of Kitty’s head! All hell broke loose when I found out! My kid was violated! The thought steams me up and depresses me at the same time. Tsk, tsk. There are so many things that I will purposely not do/ teach my child when I do have one. The most important that I will always keep in mind is to never never never SPOIL the child. I believe that it is the golden rule of child rearing, LOVE ISN’T EQUAL TO SPOILING.

Some wonderful development has happened! Ambeth Ocampo;s TTH 12-130 class has opened 10 slots and MEL and I got one! yey! Thanks to mel and imo! =) Now i don't have a 6 hour break! I just have to let some people sign and i'm done! really hope nothing goes wrong, this is the happiest i've been this week i think!

Anyways here's some bday stuff which is not very accurate regarding my life but correct about the love part

Is your birthday day 10 of the month?
>Your Life
>You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high
chance to be a
>renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame
and honor is
>near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You
are good in
>implementing your imagination and share it with
>others. You are always well dressed.
>Your Love
>You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You
always feel like
>you own the person you fall in love with and that often
blows your
>relationship.

Hello i'm here again! i'm home so early because i didn't finish my workout at the gym...that's so bad isn't it? I mean i know others would tell me that i should've finished it since i was there already but i was overpowered by sheer boredom and sleepiness...i think it's like that if there's no one around to motivate you!hehe so here i am typing away...but then i have to go for a short while LUNCH CALLS! Chow! sorry for the pun! hehe

Ok i'm back i'm having a crisis here. I'm finally able to log in the ACP website to check out the new classes. Then i find out tons of new classes that's related to food or cooking, you know stuff like that. Aaargh now i'm torn! There's still 1 slot for sushi making left but at the rate that my computer is connecting to the server of ACP, i don't think there'll be any left for me huhuh and worst, i have until 1 pm to register or im stuck with a talk on supernatural stuff! The perk is i'm with friends at least db? but i don't know..... sushi making really sounds interesting!

Just went to PJ's site and answered this quiz from her links....as you can tell i'm really bored and wasting precious prepaid credits that i know i will regret soon or when the time comes that i need credits for research or for sending stuff to Aisa, my editor in Guidon hehehe oh well


What Kind of Virgin Are You?
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Wow, isn't it so appropriate for the title of my blog? Dreams, Fantasies and Reality. I guess i'm still living in a dream world or still wishing that i was.... well, i told you...i want to live a diffrent life...i want to be somebody else...and Pink's song Don't Let me Get Me runs in my head...i wanna be somebody else

Btw, just thinking of that reminds me of Britney Spears (cOZ she's mentioned in the lyrics) Britney Spears makes me happy! She's soooo pretty! =) I wanna be like her!

How Emotional Are You?
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Hahaha this is rich! Do something that makes me happy? Hmmm define happiness? I could go eat 2 bars of chocolate, 3 musketeers and Twix, like last time when i was feeling so depressed.OOOOoops! That's a secret ok? I know i'm not supposed to well, what can i do? i was really depressed. hehe baaaad. I could look at Britney spears and try to get how her make-up artist puts make-up on britney. I really wonder how. I like her make up in STRONGER with the long lashes and emphasis on the eyes and the pink lips....very nice! I want to have blonde hair

Digress....Peachy was calling me Mel a while ago, she thought Mel got thinner and was me....is it the hair?

i haven't eaten dinner yet, though i've finished a can of Pineapple chunks--my absolute favorite!

I've still not recovered from my *sadness* but some sense of responsibilty ("conscience/1"?) is starting to creep into me so i guess i have to go now and pour my energy into Levinas' Ethics and Infinity. Aaah, Philosophy!

I feel so sucky today...and sticky too. I guess this is the feeling you get when you get home from a 4:30 class...all hot and sticky which has the propensity of giving me a bad mood....sigh oh well, that's life i guess..
When i was younger (in the teen years) i kept on making lotsa stupid mistakes and kept on regretting making the wrong decision...now that i've stepped out of the teen years, although i don't regret that much anymore, i feel more stupid. Isn't that pathetic? I think that although i don't regret, i just take my mistake in stride--too much as a matter of fact! But you know, i've thought about this a million times and now i'm still thinking the same thing. ..i just keep repeating what i think but never do anything about it.
I guess is should be more positive.
I want to live a different life. I want to be somebody else. Identity crisis, you ask? No, i'm just bored and having a sucky day.
I know i'll feel better later, maybe around 11:00 pm when my boyfriend starts to try to make me feel better (tell me some corny jokes) and i'll forget about everything again.
That's how it is. That's my life.