Courtesy. Check your phones.

Can Your Relationship Survive the Shift?

I'm on day shift again after my 1 week night shift stint.. but Aldrich is still on night shift - but they were promised that it would only be until this week.

Why can't I just be a logical person and stop whining? I just sooo hate it when he's not around. Sigh. One week na lang.. bakit hindi ko pa makayanan? Am I that weak??

Apparently, yes. I'm trying not to be....trying....

"There are a few who can manage long-distance relationships successfully, but for couples that work in the same office but never meet, the tale is very different. They find it harder to meet and even more stressful to stay awake longer than required, upsetting the balance the body constantly strives to maintain." - Craig D'Mello

"Be sensitive to what your partner is going through when he works the night shift. This will make life so much easier on both of you" - Christie Silvers

Closing Time..Finally!

I never really believed that there was such a thing as 'closure' from really confronting your problems..

I was more of an escapist kind of person who believed that memory loss or time would make everything fine

But i've experienced it myself and now i'm a believer!

Night Creature for a Week

I volunteered to be on night shift for the whole of last week and it was an enlightening experience-

I learned that I'm quite a nocturnal person. My shift mate would fall asleep but i was always awake and alert. Of course there are bouts of sleepiness, but nothing like thesis-times' head-dropping-to-the-keyboard kind of thing.

I guess it also helped that whenever i felt any signs of a major sleepiness attack, I'd have my mini-Nescafe mixed pack in hand: Nescafe Gold, Nesacafe Decaf, and Nescafe Protect. To complete that is Nesvita Non-fat powdered milk and my packets of Splenda Sugar substitute (This is not an Ad) hahaha!

And all in all, night shift isn't that bad (at least for me) especially since our work is not tedious. We're just running batch jobs and validating output files which is simple and mechanical. Not much brain cells are needed unlike when creating Test Case requirements, you'd have to map lots of documents and spreadsheets in your head.

Starting Monday, I'll be back on normal creature shift already and will be looking after my teammates during the day. By some twist of fate, I got moved up to Backup Team Lead and I think it's a really great opportunity :) It's like going back to where I was before in Accenture and in a matter of 2 months!

I'm optimistic about things and determined to tackle and challenges that lie ahead.

Hurting...

It hurts

Like a knife

Cutting through your heart


You don't know

How to stop the pain


Should you escape

Won't it follow you?


The world is upside down

Yet when the orbs meet

it's not magic but chaos

On the Flip Side

On the flip side, my 'pampered' upbringing and the challenge that i face right now has made me come to terms on what I want to be in the next 5 years or so: I will be RICH!

That's Thought level 10! Feelings, Action and Results will follow with the same level of passion.

There's no sense worrying about cooking your own meal when you can afford to hire someone hehehe.

Change Change Change

A deep feeling such as this definitely deserves a post in my 'real' and one and only blog...

There have been so many changes and events in my life lately...so many realizations and eye-opening experiences regarding life...

I remember back in grade school my friends and I were chatting in the corridor while waiting for the teacher to inspect our uniform...one of my friends said that her parents spank her using a bamboo stick, another one joined the conversation and said that her parents used a belt; I, on the other hand said that I was never spanked by my parents.

At that time, I thought I was lucky that I was not spanked by my parents; but now, I realized that I was not as fortunate as my classmates were.

A child who was never disciplined by his parents is going to have a very hard time in the real world...and that's exactly how I'm doing -- having a hard time.

I've been pampered my entire life, this is of course under my parents assumption that they will be able to continue to provide all the luxuries I was used to when I was a kid until before I leave their house. As you've already guessed, that assumption was wrong. Businesses go bankrupt and money disappears.

It was a very very slow process of learning for me... the very first thing I remember giving up was airconditioning. And I did this not by myself but through the influence of a friend.

Next things were about transportation.

First there was no more driver.. then no more car.. then my bro drove me...i eventually learned to ride a jeep but only the ayala loop jeep...next came the MRT but from Shang to Ayala only and not always...then jeep from Kartek to Sea Oil to ride with Arvin...

Then more recently, I've finally mustered up whatever inside me to commute going home: Walk from Philam Life Tower to the MRT Station @ SM. I even bought a stored value card to signify that I'll be doing this on a daily basis. Squeeze myself into the train to get to Santolan/Annapolis Station, then squeeze myself out. Walk towards Crame and to 1st avenue where the San Juan bound jeeps are. Aldrich meets me somewhere along Crame and we ride home together.

It may seem easy for 'normal' people but it is by far the biggest feat that I've accomplished.

Just a few hours ago, Aldrich and I cooked pancakes and he cooked some more of his breakfast food to eat. I washed some dishes and set the table. We sat down and started eating the pancakes. Then it suddenly dawned on me...Is this how life would be once I'm out of my parents house?

I had to cook so I'd have something to eat! And my pancakes didn't even meet up to my standards. I wanted to cry. Why is life so hard? Why is it so hard for me?

I felt that I was grossly unprepared for the 'real world' whereas other people have been immersed in it ever since. I was living in a bubble and now the bubble has disappeared completely.

I'm in the middle of the Rich Dad, Poor Dad book by Robert Kiyosaki and also attended a Cash Flow 101 workshop. From these I learned that schools do not give us any financial knowledge in order to make money work for us and not the other way around.

Sigh. So many things that I have to catch up on! Well, as they say, better late than never!