Thoughts Past Midnight....

I never thought singlehood could feel this good! I used to think that i couldn't live without a boyfriend, that my world would fall apart and i'd lose meaning and purpose in life! What a misguided girl i was!!!

I've already realized and learned so much in just a few weeks since the 'big breakup' and i know there's still so much more that i will discover as the days go by.

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I'm finally and gradually learning to be independent, to stand on my own two feet and not keep on relying on other people (read: boyfriend and parents) to "shelter" me from the harsh realities of the world and of urban living, in particular.

In my two weeks of singlehood, I've tried out the different modes of public transportation--some alone and some with friends. Jeep, FX, Taxi, Bus, Tricycle but i have yet to ride the MRT, hehehe. I should probably start learning how to drive already. There's no one stopping me now =) I'm willing to take the risk, because i know it's the only way to learn. Just like what people say about learning to ride a bicycle (which i never learned), you gotta experience falling and hurting yourself in order to learn.

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Finally, i have more time for myself and my friends. It's about time that i rebuild my grossly neglected relationship with my friends and find out who i really am--my own set of principles, beliefs, interests. Until i have established and lived those set of things that define who i am, i won't enter into another relationship yet. It's just not fair for me and for the other party.

I'm just really glad and thankful for my friends who have stuck with me even though i wasnt always there for them in the past...and also for my new friends who have been ever-supportive during the times that i felt so empty and depressed. I've never felt so lucky and blessed-- for having been given the chance to grow into a strong and mature individual. =)