Picky with Practicum

I finally called up GMA.

After hearing that there were still openings at the NEWS dept., i called up Ma'am Christine to ask to be reassigned. But it turns out that i was too late, the slots were filled up probably because i didn't call her up as soon as i knew. (I was at the Circle of 10 orientation and mini fashion show yesterday up until 10:00 pm!)

What the heck, i told myself. I'd still give it a shot since Ma'am Christine gave her word she does not allow practicumers to stay overnight in the studio.(What about Dior and her practicum-mates?) Anyway, Abby Quizon told me to report at 10am tomorrow to Ninon at the 7th floor.

Right now, i am once again undecided if i should have my practicum at GMA. Dior texted me that she got in ABS-CBN even though she was wait-listed and practicumers there are assigned to the NEWS department. So i'm giving it a shot and passing my resume there tomorrow before reporting to GMA.

I'll also be passing resumes to Summit Media (Cosmo/Seventeen), CHALK, MEG and PINK. I feel that i have a good chance of getting in the magazines, so i might take a second practicum in one of those mags if i still have time after my first one.

I am torn, so torn! Just a while ago, i decided to just let it be--that i should just concentrate on my practicum and follow whatever sched they give me. But now, i'm having that feeling of DREAD again. Sigh, why does it have to be this complicated? I wish i had time to do everything and grab all the opportunities but it just doesn't work that way.

Choices, Sacrifices, Regrets

I've temporarily dealt with the Circle of 10 thing. I told myself to continue as long as i can, if my practicum does not permit then i'll quit. I know that what i wrote is such a lie and that it'll be a super hard decision to make when the time finally comes. Augh!

Here's a rundown of what's gonna happen.

• April 23-27 (any day)-- Free Salon Service at Randy Florendo Salon
  
  
• April 28-30 (candidates scheduled/batch/day)--Pictorial
  
  
• 1st Wk of May-- Workshops/Group Dynamics/Basic Acting
  
  
• 2nd Wk of May-- Ramp Modeling Workshop/Acting on Camera Workshop
  
  
• 3rd Wk of May-- Dance Workshop/VTR Workshop
  
  
• 4th Wk of May-- Make-over Workshop/ Personality Dev't
  
  **For the whole month of May, mini fashion shows or bar tours may be scheduled every weekend**
  
  
• 1st Wk of June-- Fun Shoots/Outing/Team Building
  (Rumor has it that this will be in BORACAY!)
  
  
• 2nd Wk of June to July (weekends) Meeting w Pageant Director and start of rehearsals
  
  
• Month of July--
  
  
  • regular weekend rehearsals
    
  • fitting/measurements w/ designers
    
  • press conference/media launch
    
  • TV guestings
    
  • Additional fashion shows if any
    
  • Sponsors' Night/Talent Night (tentative)
  
  
  
• Aug 1-8 (6-10pm)--regualr REHARSALS and Technical Dress Rehearsals
  
  
• Aug 9, 2003-- PAGEANT NIGHT (target date)

As you can see, this 'model search' proves to be another problem, another complication in an already complicated summer schedule. Not only am i having difficulty reconciling my Vanilla Coke/VTRs/Go-See Scheds with my practicum, but also with this whole Circle of 10 thing! Go-sees and VTRs can be skipped with a just a tinge of regret, Vanilla Coke has the lesser pay option, i just don't know what to do with the Circle.

I'm not really sure if it's even worth it that i get binded by a 1 year contract with Ivan Entertainment (all candidates will be). I'm not even assured of getting in the 10 (which will only get a prize money of 20 thou and gift cheques, freebies, etc.) and what guarantee do i get from signing an exclusive contract with them? Honestly, even though this model search has been in it's fourth year, they don't seem to have much to boast of than Karen delos Santos?!? and nameless commercial and ramp models--or so they say. But i guess it's still an experience that i will surely learn from. I'm just not sure if what i learn will be worth those that i give up.

Other Plans for Summer and Beyond

Inquirer's 2bU! is accepting new correspondents! I will definitely try out although grapevine has it that mostly guys will be accepted since i think there's a dearth of male correspondents. Well, I'm still gonna try out coz i'd rather have a little probablity of getting in than no probability at all.

I'm reapplying for the Inquiry staff of Guidon. I hope Trina, the new Inquiry editor, will still have me. We need to make a portfolio of all our articles and undergo an interview. I am assuming that we should be ready to criticize, scrutinize and analyze our previous works and give suggestions for improvement? If ever it comes up in the interview, I PROMISE TO ALWAYS MEET THE DEADLINE! Hey, I'm turning over a new leaf! I hope they give me a chance.

Uh-oh. I just remembered that i'll be joining Mel in Chinoy, the official publication of Celadon. Mel's the EIC there! Hmmm, well, wherever i get accepted, i shall do my best in balancing everything out. I must sharpen my time management skills! (Which if you have to know, i'm very bad at, hehe)

P.S. I just talked to Dior and she has successfully washed off a lot of my DREAD for tomorrow's practicum. Dior's like the sunshine and rainbow rolled into one! Wish me luck, i'll be at the taping of Sana Ikaw Na Nga tomorrow morning.

P.P.S. Fatima, my friend from Circle of 10, just called. We set thet date of our free grooming on Sat, 3pm. Awww, I'm really gonna miss her and my other friends there when the time comes that i have to quit. Boohoo, torn.