A Diary Excerpt...

Sometimes the light inside me just fades to an all-time low and i feel numb, like a robot..

Sometimes I feel like an open wound that gets hurt so easily, and the emotional pain seems so unbearable--the pain courses through my entire body--making me feel that i want to die...

Sometimes i feel so frustrated with myself because i see myself trying so hard to be strong but never being able to sustain it for a long time; failure happens and it makes me wish i could prevent failure yet i know deep inside me that it's not possible..

Because as long as i care, as long as I love, i will forever feel th pain but it is also love that gives me hope and brings me to heights of happiness that i've never imagined..

I'm a slave to love, it's my light source...

The Mind has a thousand eyes,
The Heart but one,
Yet the Light of a whole Life dies
When Love is done

--Francis William Bourdillon