Stressed. Stressed. Stressed.Now I can use my Satsuma Oil Reed Diffuser that I specifically bought for situations like these. Although I realize now that its a 'subtle' type of air freshener so I sniffed on the bottle with oil for the meantime since I need a quick fix.
Things that de-stress me
1) Nature
2) Relaxing Music (oldies, acoustic, easy listening.. basta not noisy rock )
2) Surfing the net
3) Going to a mall that has good AC, few people, and nice things to look at
Freaky Freedom.I just realized now that freedom is freaky. I've never had this level and type of freedom ever.
Of course when I was a kid, there's the rules of the school, of the parents, etc. Then at 16 i got into my first relationship with a very controlling boyfriend - that was for 5 and a half years. Then during the 9 months that I was 'technically' single, I was in this 'MU' stage with someone so basically it's the same thing without the label. Then after that, I got into my 2nd relationship which I am currently in. But now my boyfriend is in the States and he's a promoter of individuality so I have this unique kind of freedom but the assurance as well that I would still have someone when this long wait is over.
The problem is that I am only dealing with my inner demons just now because I've never had the chance to face them before since I was always focused on being in a relationship.
Mahirap pala.There's so many tempatations these days and it's up to me and only me to restrain and stop myself. If I don't stop myself, then no one will. Scary!!!
I'm actually responsible for my own actions and my actions have grave consequences.
Sheesh. Why am I only learning this now??
I was just presented with an idea a while ago and good, obedient Grace would say "No" but then I realized that I could technically do it and no one's around to stop me.
The possibility actually frightened me.
I need to setup my own limitations and boundaries. Oh man!!!