Talking to Myself

Talking to Myself

This is the last day that the laptop will be with me. I’ve watched 3 rounds of the latest Smallville episodes and I’ve finally finished the entire season with Clark trapped in a hexagonal disk floating in outer space. Oh, what hope that brings to humankind!

I wonder if Smallville will ever transition into the Superman Series. There’s too many gaps like how come Clark doesn’t remember Lois and what happens to Lana and Chloe… stuff like that. But then since it’s Smallville, weird things can always happen like memories being reset and lives being lived again, who knows what fantastic event will happen that will lead to Clark Kent’s destiny?

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Tomorrow will be my last day at work for this week coz I’ll be on leave on the 8th -- having an advanced birthday celebration with Aldrich :) He says we’re going to HEAT @ Edsa Shangri-la hotel for lunch then off to Gateway to watch Devil Wears Prada! Ooh, it is my day coz we’re eating at hotel buffets and watching a chick flick hehehe. Maybe we’ll have Chai Latte at Coffee Bean afterwards too! I just hope that everything turns out well and it will indeed be a relaxing day for me. Sometimes, even if you don’t get tired at work, you get tired when you’re already home. Doesn’t make sense really, but maybe it’s more of a mental fatigue than a physical one.

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Speaking of physical stuff, I still haven’t assembled the Elliptical machine that Drich gave me for my birthday! I’m not very good at assembling stuff and I don’t want to injure myself with my own creation. I’d just get annoyed and lose faith in the machine—that should never happen, coz that exercise machine costs a lot of money!

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Ack! There’s really nothing to blog about! What should I talk about—work? Oh, I was in the office all day, I made spreadsheets, checked spreadsheets, coached people, gave status and attended a call when I was at home. Hmm other than that, I had lunch with Aldrich and we had merienda at Jollibee. Sounds droll? Well, sounds like but it’s not really that bad. If you ask Drich, I even had to consciously draw myself away from the computer coz I wanted to finish the spreadsheet that I was doing. Oh and I get excited every time I get an email – of course it also depends on the content. I actually planned lots of trainings today and I kinda like that. I’ll be giving trainings over lunch for the whole week next week and it makes my blood rush and gets my brain working and my heart pumping. It’s cool to still have that feeling inside you, which just means that there’s still the driving factor that makes you stay and work.

These days, I try to be as positive as possible when it comes to work because a few negative lines is enough to influence my day. I’m very fragile at this period in time as I mentioned in my previous post but hey, I’m fighting back to regain the lost glory – love of work.

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If I speak what I type then I would talk a lot but as it is, I write a lot but do not talk like this very much. I can seem to write and type away even though what I’m discussing doesn’t really merit discussion or does not make any sense at all. See? I’ve filled up three lines!

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I just realized a while ago that there is still some bitterness left in me for my ex. Oh yes, it’s true and I admit to it. I guess I hold on to grudges at times and this is one of those times. I’m not really mad at him or anything, but there’s just a little bit of resentment whenever I am reminded of the past. I guess there’s so much that happened over the five and a half years that I didn’t really have time to pause and contemplate on them. I just stored them in my brain and now, they come back to me on certain occasions and I am able to realize what a fool I was! I was spineless on the times that mattered, tsk tsk tsk. Oh I hear echoes of someone telling me to, “Move On, Grace!” Hahaha! Yes, I’ve moved on, definitely, bad memories just have the tendency of coming back to haunt you!