Supposedly Just Passing By

I just decided to pass by since I watched Alice in Wonderland with dreamspinner_ last Friday and she mentioned about LJ, hehe. The last time i had an entry was October! My gosh! I've been awfully busy balancing school life, work life, family life and love life.

Work, of course, takes most percentage of the pie that is my lfie while school comes in second. Love life would have the third largest share, since it more or less overlaps with school - my boyfriend being an MBA student as well - so our 'dates' mostly are study sessions where we sit side by side in campus, typing away at our laptops with the occasional consultation or two on some analysis that we are not sure about.

Family life, unfortunately, has to come in last with almost just a day at San Juan (Saturday night until Sunday late afternoon) although I'm now texting with my mom on a daily basis to ask how her day is. This act would have probably struck me as weird a few years back but it just makes sense now - since i'm living away from home and she has cancer.

My mom is the best, most kind, most loving and the nicest person I know on this planet, my heart aches whenever I think of the pain she has to experience each day and yet she still remains strong and all she asks for is our time, our love which she unconditionally gave us when we were small.

It's a sad thought really but when I'm at Makati, I don't want to go all emo and think deeply about this lest I be useless and teary-eyed. I guess this is my way of coping - only allowing myself to feel the pain when I'm in San Juan. This mostly likely is because the reality of it is in my face and there's no where to stash away these feelings.

This should be enough crying for one day.. now back to my case analysis paper... and then zzzz

The Man's Bday is Coming up...

Event Planner Mode: On.

Should it be with me only?

Should I invite friends?

Do we just eat?

Sing at World Music?

It should be stuff he likes...

hmmmm

Pwede bang mag LOA?

I'm bored with my work.. there's no job depth... I need some job enrichment according tot he Trajano Job Satisfaction model

Management Science Jargon

I read my refresher paper on Operations Management recently and I had a hard time understanding it!!

I want to revise it to become more layman friendly because my proposals are useless if not understood by the business owner... tsk! To think I was so proud and accomplished after finishing that paper.

There are times really when you need to put your work aside then look at it again after sometime to have a more objective point of view.

Oh well, I'll update that paper when I have time :)

Updating Business Requirements

I've been tasked to update business requirements due to some rule changes

I like this work, it feels important.

Maybe I should consider branching into Business Analysis together with Quality Assurance.

Hmmmm...

I wonder what specific skills and years of experience I need? --> http://www.softwarecertifications.org/qai_csba.htm

I know that one of my problems is not having a firm grasp of programming language / logic.. and I still have no interest in learning one hehehe

We'll see.. just a passing thought though 

Happiness!

Just to break the continuous stress related posts in my blog, i just want to say that I AM HAPPY.

*lol*

Despite the trials that come my way, I can say that I am at my happiest point right now because I know that this happiness is well-placed and has a stronger foothold than my previous frivolous happy-go-lucky type of joy. :)

Happiness is what we make it ;)

i. am. stressed.

Since it's the weekend, i was thinking that i could treat myself to a much needed hair-cut and maybe a foot massage at Cinese foot spa since my left leg/ankle/foot hurts.

I've been resisting the needless self-treat temptation until the time comes that it becomes necessary. I actually think this is THE time since I've been stressing left and right and also as a preparation to the brewing busyness of the current term.

This is a justification to treating myself - I actually think I'm entitled to despite the current situation. I believe that it is also a preventive measure against future, more debilitating stress-related illnesses.

Breathe in. Breathe out. De-stress.

Rant of the Day

hates that i was not taught anything but expected to provide something.

hate it

hate it

hate it.

*tears forms into a gazillion pieces*

A Bitter Pill

I just talked to my parents about my debts and although I guess it'll be great to start 2010 debtless, it's kinda sad that so much money to come will never pass through my fingers and will simply just be paid online to a credit card. S

Sigh. Its just sad..

It's not even here but it's already committed to something. But oh well, sacrifices have to be made to start the year right.

I'm still wondering though if I should at least keep some for myself..but then i'd still have debt that way. damn.

Let's just say that I'm not used to it yet.. after all, its been 26 years of happy-go-lucky-spend-as-if-it-were-your-last-day-on-earth holiday seasons...so I guess it's about time that I make a change.

Hayy, maturity. I finally have to grow up. What a bitter pill to swallow!

The Dreaded Burned Out Feeling

This is the feeling that I dread the most especially when it is towards work.

Right now, at 27 years old, I'm more concerned about financial stability..for my future. Some of my office mates are starting to scout for new jobs - after all, we're almost 2 years into the company and nothing much has happened. I've learned now not to expect any kind of enriching learning as I did with my first job - if I was in here only for the money, then it's a pity since I was not able to save any, tsk.

I fear sometimes that I'm just wasting my resources away.. well I am studying MBA so I think that's an investment.. but what shall I do in the future? What shall I become? Hmmm...

At least I'm thankful now that I've finally learned to save. I shall not look back on then past with regret but strive on to build my future..today. Sounds like an ad for real estate or insurance or a bank, sheesh. hehe

Thoughts in Class Right Now

1. weekend work is such a hassle.

2. [nerdy thought] wants to use some other mgt science technique in my paper rather than PERT-CPM...needs a company to apply this...hmmm

3. can i be a mgtsci/operations optimization consultant when i finish my MBA? Although there are so many other factors involved rather than the technical aspect

Topic: Waiting Lines and Queing Theory Model:

- hmmm...i wonder if Starbucks applies some ops technique during christmas season? i think so actually. different shifts of servers?

- Too many buses on the streets of Manila.....but what about livelihood? a little for everybody than opitimized earnings for a few..and greater good of all?

Hm....what if i apply project management techiniques to my baking business before? wow, i wonder what great insights i will pick up...interesting...