My battlescars

Syempre pag pasok ko sa room bago nasira :-(. Pero n0w i understand why... Its part of my battle with the 'self' Thank God for this!

Is this how i am

Day of Valor

I just got home!!! It's a holiday today but we had overtime work at the office, I finished around 420pm then headed off to the gym to burn the Tapa Queen Bowl I ate during lunch. I ate rice!!! I don't regret the mais con hielo.. it was yummy :)

After watching 'Miami Vice' with I think it was Colin Farrel at the gym, I went to my bro's house to interview Grace for my MktMgt term paper.

I tried to call THe Spa @ Greenbelt but they were fully booked so my 2nd choice was Suriya Spa. I was badly needing the ambiance today so I went to the one at Ascott.

The place wasn't bad, cordial and hospitable people, keyless locker, my own massage room where the stereo played on its own when I arrived. Ah, disposable undies! Cool.

There was a basin with flowers underneath the massage bed where my face was facing down on..I like the strokes of the masseuse...nice, long strokes with the right amount of pressure...just enough to make me doze off...hehehe

The ambiance was not ala The Spa but I think that would suffice for the time being 1232 ba naman + 100 tip hehehe. Gotta be generous in places like these so that you'll be remembered (in a positive light) when you come back.

Hello World

I had a great time yesterday...

Lunchout with ASCAP peeps for Gherette's birthday! We even bought him his favorite mocha cake with candles :)

Then I was able to offset 2 hours woohoo! Even though I left at 5:15, there were times that I was not really doing work but talking on the phone so I offset those hours with my previous overtimes. That made me feel accomplished already haha babaw

I met up with Edward at around 6:30 at Metrowalk and proceeded to sing until 1030pm at Platinum KTV. The rates there are per room so it's a bit expensive if there's just two of you, but it was definitely fun belting out Britney spears' songs, oldies like Buttercup and Dancing Queen and crooning to the sounds of Bryan Adams and Aerosmith. We also sang Kaleidoscope in tribute to the late Man of Manila - Francis M.
I liked Kisapmata and Harana too...I discovered an old song called Next in Line and the lyrics and message of the song is nice....different from the pop beat songs I usually sing haha

Edward mostly sang the typical guy songs and rock ones which made me remember Arvin who's in Pittsburgh right now with Tin.

We actually didn't eat dinner because the food was expensive inside the KTV so it wasn't worth it. We had free fries though and I had cappuccino at Starbucks afterwards.

Even though I had fun yesterday, I still miss Aldrich a lot. We just had our Saturday webcam session and it's just not the same without him. But i guess this is how it's gonna be for the next 2 or 5 months and I think I'm gradually getting the hang of being more independent than I'm used to.

I'm off to the gym right now to watch a movie in Cinefit while walking on the treadmill. Afterwards, I'm gonna do my MktMgt paper somewhere in the mall coz it's hot at home.

I won't be going to the 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee play later @ RCBC Plaza coz I have church choir practice. No biggie really, it's a bit hassle to go to Makati again anyway. I'd rather go to church practice :)

I need to fight off my inner 'sadness' and 'loneliness' demons.

We Were the Mulvaneys

I'm always up, watching TV, it seems that I don't want to give my mind rest.. It seems that I am running away from something. I watch these shows with rape and violence and it affects me... I empathize with the characters - their fears, their pain, their suffering... I feel all of them.

I get tired emotionally.. but why do I do this? Why do I drain my energies... maybe because I'm sad? Trying to hide away from my own emotions and feeling others' instead?

I want my life to be something more than waiting for someone to come home.. but it's difficult.. I try to be strong but the uncertainty is a killer.. I don't want to feel my own pain. i can't handle it.

Tears roll down from my cheeks.. are they for me or are they for the characters I see on TV?

The world is an unbalanced place. Life's a bitch and I've got to deal with it..:(

fashionistas

I just came back from Rockwell where I visited the Rockwell Urban Bazaar. One thing that I can say after making the rounds in the stalls manned by young girls, "I'm definitely from a different generation."

The clothes of the girls and the way they talk... definitely not part of my generation. Maybe at par or even upping the 'conyo's of my generation.

It's TV I tell you!

March 11 Wednesday Church Group Meeting

Not in fleshly wisdom but in the grace of God, we behaved ourselves. 2 Corinthians 1.12.

The principle of Christian living is to rely on the will of God and not on one’s cleverness, to depend on the grace of God and not on our own wisdom. This is a lesson we need to learn. Suppose some action is put before you, but you do not know whether to do it this way or that, or not at all. You have no idea which is right. So you begin to deliberate on the effect of whichever action you may take. If you do it this way or that, what will people say? You therefore try to be clever. How? To say or to do that which will meet the least problem and avoid the most opposition. By following this policy it means you have forgotten that God’s children do not live on earth by human cleverness. To be a Christian is really quite simple. You merely ask one thing: “God, what do You want me to do?"


So many decisions in life that I battled with on my own or pestered my boyfriend about.. I wish I had asked God first! Life would have been so much easier!

God would have probably hindered my from that 3000 Zunic 'donation' I made... tsk tsk tsk

Everything seems to fall into place now,,, I see the pattern of my mistakes.. I should put a post it in my wallet and credit card...

and right now...

God, should I go to Rockwell on the weekend to visit the Urban Bazaar?
God, should I go to Megamall on the weekend to visit the Crocs 80% sale?
God, should I even consider buying a FitFlop?

the best thing to ask God on a daily basis: God, should I eat this? God, should I buy Starbucks? God, will eating or drinking this make me feel better? God, should I sleep or go to the gym?

God, what do you want me to do?

Lemon Chicken

Alone on a Friday once again..

After class, I went to Paseo Center to try and eat at Teriyaki Boy but it was closed already. It was fortunate that North Park was still open. I've been craving for Lemon Chicken for quite sometime now.

I had Lemon Chicken, 1 cup rice, fresh lemon iced tea and house tea :)

Yumm yumm!

1st Week...

Today officially marks 1 week since Aldrich left for the U.S.

So far I'm doing fine...especially during weekdays where I'm kept busy at work.

My first dilemma arose last Sunday when I was at the mall.. no one to stroll around the mall with while seeing other couples happily walking by.

My next dilemma was just this Friday. I had a meeting at school till 9pm then I didn't know where to go afterwards.

I'm still adjusting... I hope I can live through the next 3 months or so :(

one step at a time

So many thoughts.. so little time
So many things to do... so little time

~have to read mktmgt article for our presentation
~have to choose pictures for the scrapbook
~have to complete my budget template and plan

waaah and i still want to enjoy, watch tv, sleep and all that

hay i have to take things one step at a time.

poor rihanna.

The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee