I'm always up, watching TV, it seems that I don't want to give my mind rest.. It seems that I am running away from something. I watch these shows with rape and violence and it affects me... I empathize with the characters - their fears, their pain, their suffering... I feel all of them.
I get tired emotionally.. but why do I do this? Why do I drain my energies... maybe because I'm sad? Trying to hide away from my own emotions and feeling others' instead?
I want my life to be something more than waiting for someone to come home.. but it's difficult.. I try to be strong but the uncertainty is a killer.. I don't want to feel my own pain. i can't handle it.
Tears roll down from my cheeks.. are they for me or are they for the characters I see on TV?
The world is an unbalanced place. Life's a bitch and I've got to deal with it..:(
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