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Thoughts on a Rainy Day

I think I’m more of a nature person than a techie one. Yes, I might yearn for a laptop or desktop PC but it comprises only a meager percent of my desires. The computer and its other accessories are just for my writing and designing purposes, which are not techie kind of things. The computer is only a tool for me, a tool to express my emotions and reveal my artsy side.

I thrive on the sight of lush trees and greenery outside my window. Our neighbor across the street has a huge expanse of ‘undeveloped’ land filled with fruit trees :) This never fails to brighten up my day especially when I am greeted by the warm sun, blue sky and the beautiful trees as I wake up and open my curtains. This little piece of heaven is the kind of surrounding where I eventually want to live and call my home someday.

Since I am now capable of earning and saving my own money, the dreams and aspirations seems to flow freely in me. This idea is new to me because I always had this rubber stopper mechanism to prevent myself from expecting too much and getting disappointed in the end. It seems like I am finally freed from those restrictive urges, well at least, to some extent.

I find myself dreaming of having my own place, currently its Serendra that I have in mind. The incorporation of a park with lots of trees in a condo area really got to me and I’m thinking of investing some money in this place (‘thinking’ being the operative word) Of course, I know that there are a lot of financial things and more to consider but I’m just happy to be able to aspire for something bigger. :)

There are so many thoughts and plans swirling around in my head these days, I guess this is the time when I am finally thinking of where I want to be in the next 5 years or so…

Suddenly, the importance and priority of things change; what was once the world to me has become just a part of the bigger picture. This is the time in my life where change is inevitable…

Pour down the Resentment

Why have I not blogged since March? Because that’s about the time that I was assigned to the Test Team of our team’s current release. I was really excited at first, literally with adrenaline pumping and butterflies in my stomach from the excitement of being given a new role. I approached my tasks with enthusiasm each day and even had extra energy to encourage others who were down. That was when we were doing TCERs and the start of the Core Scripts.

When Individual Scripts came, I was feeling quite run down from the constant overtime that I was rendering; add to that the feeling that the management does not have your back. It was a disaster brewing intensely.

I had a few days break after the Test Planning since I was tagged to work for other stuff; after that I was placed into the PT Execution team to help out Anna since she’s pregnant and cannot be exposed to deadly overtime. (I read in a newspaper article last night that night shift work for women exposes them to higher risk of breast cancer) It was overtime hell all over again but suddenly, our manager proposed a shifting schedule for the two of us and a ‘Sacred Day’ for the Manila executors. Eyebrows raised but clearly pleased and relieved, I felt my life and energy slowly coming back.

It was a nice move from our manager but it will just be branded as a failed attempt if those initiatives are not translated to long term plans, such as effectively pushing back work that the team cannot handle anymore, creating more realistic Timeline and Estimates and being open to change.

So cliché, but always forgotten.

• The only constant in this life is change.
• There is always room for improvement in everything.
• The unwillingness to change something just because it is already working shows narrow-mindedness and the inability to take necessary risks to attain improvement.

I was extremely disappointed, but hey, people make wrong decisions, so here I am giving them another chance, and hoping that the succeeding days prove to be better.

If not? Then it’s time for Plan B.