January 24, 2003. It's 11:20 and what am I doing? Reading other people's livejournals, reading my PR notes, reading the PR take home exam, looking for a good recipe of Black Forest cake. I'm also fixing the space bar of my keyboard. I tampered with it some time ago when I was feeling like a professional keyboard cleaner and what did I do? Pop the thing out of its socket and now I still can't figure how to get it back in the right position. I guess my sister who's supposed to be sleeping at the other room just has to bear with all the clickety-clacking noise.

I am such a silly impulsive person. I was feeling kinda pissed off and depressed a while ago so I decided to cheer myself up. I asked Ann, Mel and Rom out on a date tomorrow. Well, it turns out that Mel's the only one available. So I guess it's an official date haha, I'll be the lesbian this time! (hi Rom: Precious Princessita!)

Anway, after the orientation at UP, Mel and I will head to SlimmersWorld at Atlanta (thank God they lifted that pathetic 1pm curfew!) and then catch a movie at Galleria. That'll be around 5 something and the movie will end around 7pm. This all sounds nice but looking deep within my soul, I know I have a hidden agenda: Pre-occupy myself while Oli's not around.

It's not super bad because I did tell Mel, Rom and Ann that this was reason behind my asking them out. Yet, this does not change the fact that I did it. I know it's wrong and I'm starting to feel rotten about it but it's too late to back out. Besides, I want to know what will happen to me, like will I feel any better or will it just be skin deep?

I've got to get a hold of myself. I'm basing everything I do on my silly emotions! St. Agustine and his lower faculties! Argh! You know what I shoud start doing? Control those passions/emtions. Lately, I've been feeling sluggish. I get home, eat and try not to include rice, lie in bed, open the TV, fall asleep, talk to Oli, go to sleep. I am such a pig! The do-my-homework part suddenly disappeared! Sigh. If I continue this, my grades and my life will certainly hit rock bottom. Earth to Grace, wake up!

Here are my goals…they say it's easier to stick to them if they're actually written down.

1. Lose 10 pounds! (Yes, I didn't believe the weighing scale myself when I saw where it was pointing to!)
2. Study and do homework everyday!
3. NO CRAMMING!
4. Read "overdue" books! (Night shift, Tex, Can you sue…., Bridges of Madison County, Endangered Pleasures, A Stranger for Christmas, Men are from Mars…, Boy Meets Girl, Lose Weight, Feel Good…, Idiot's Guidte to Massage, Taste Berry Tales, HeartWarmers, The Rescue, What to Say…, Maya, Dust to Dust, ETC.!) Get what I mean?
5. Go to the GYM regularly TTHS!
6. Stick to Beauty Regimen (putting lotion, clease-tone-moisturize, etc: they're investments!)
7. Be Nice to Oli! (no selfish tantrums, please!)
8. Save Money! (read: no impulse buying)

There are of course a gazillion more but I have to end now. Part of my beauty regimen is to get some beauty sleep too! Ciao!